Two days in a roll.

I rolled my eyes at my dad yesterday and honestly not even ashamed of saying that he gave me a beating. And i cant fucking understand why he cant just talk and say "dont do that its disrespectful.". i wouldnt have done it but school was already ruining my day. I cried the whole night yest. Two hrs straight.. new record yay.... and i cried even more because my dad showed not a bit of guilt for beating me and leaving me a bruise. You're prob scared of my dad now. Ok. Well. Im so done. I went through the whole day laughing but i srsly wanted to just go home lay in bed and cry. When he called home this morning, he was like did it hurt? Sorry. I love you. And i woke up to tears. Way to go dad. But today when i got home i cried again. And while i was eating dinner i cried again. And im just really upset because after he hit me, hes acting like its normal and that im this unhumane being that knows nothing about pain..
Im so sad omg. I cant even. The fact that he doesnt even acknowledge what he did wrong... do you honestly think that beating was well deserved... because i can assure you that i didnt deserve it at all. I mightve deserved a yelling , but not a beating.