second day

work was really good today but im still in the process of learning everything haha. Everyone is so nice ugh even the customers are nice to me because they know im new.
One guy was like, "Training?... You're doing fine sweetie. No one will give you shit dont worry."
Another guy was like, "you're doing a great job. Don't be nervous!!"
and then this other guy was like "just started work? Let me make this easy for you then haha"
PEOPLE ARE ACTUALLY REALLY NICE WOW YAY

First day of work was okay haha. Im still really slow with the ordering computer thingy lmao

Lmao what happened to my healthy lifestyle posts? HAHAHA i think ima make a journal for that so im just gonna delete them rn xDDD

@ 9-11 orientation & got my uniform and shi

@ 11-12:30 pieology w jimmy

@ 12:30 - 1 got lost and freaked even passed by dads workplace bc thats how far i went before i almost cried lol

Mr. & Miss Argo

All the contestants were so cute and ugh such wonderful people. David Nguyen and Karen Ayala won and i like them a lot. Then drove chris over to nates to get his backpack and carl me and chris ended up hanging there for like an hour. And it was really nice to just sit around and talk HAHA. And then chris spilled everything about doing weed wtf HAHA. 

Lmao i told tien about how i was upset bc carolyn wanted to go eat with the guys but i wanted to hang out before the show. And then on the same day she went out with amber kim and kc and i wasnt invited Lol. And then idk why but i thought about it and how it ties back to the psychology thing that says some people are really needy and want attention and people to love them. And idk if that even applies to me bc confirmation bias. But i just got really depressed bc i felt antisocial and unwanted again lmao. Kinda like how i felt sophomore year when i felt left out from everything haha. And it was just a bad feeling because then i felt like i havent changed for the better even though thats how ive been feeling since the beginning of senior year and i was finally happy that i was more outgoing and have more friends just to shrink back to the old me that i hated so much and i guess I just have a lot of hatred for any part of me that i considered unlikable and unwanted. i really do crave wonderful and carefree friendships where i dont get upset over shit like this. I just wish I had the mentality to not care when I feel neglected. 

First timer at pokinometry and it wasnt even bad, it was rlly good... The fish melts in ur mouth :o

I was really scared to try it honestly HAHA

And theres a really nice thrift store across from it that I am going to go to after I get my first paycheck :)

Day 7 & 8

Was rlly productive on saturday W mom at supermarket and the usual and skipped dinner yest bc i had lunch at 4pm LMAO

Sunday: woke up at 7:30 and went for a jog for 15 min and walked for 30 :-) I feel great about myself (finally) HAHA

Day 4 & 5 & 6

Didnt do anything on wednes or thurs or friday gdi HAHAH but its all good xD

I am finally employed (@ mcd) BUT WHO CARES. Haha

Excited to be working with Jimmy, Thomas and Roberto heheh